It was May 6, 1978, and I was a nine-year old whelp who would soon be 10. We had gathered at a relative's home - I'm pretty sure it was my cousin Peggy Ryan's apartment in Flushing - for one of the dozens of family gatherings we would regularly have on the weekends throughout any given year when I was a kid. We were a very close-knit Irish clan scattered around New York and New Jersey, but with the exception of my father's brother Gerald (who lived and worked in El Paso, Texas as an official for the US Border Patrol) we all lived in the greater metropolitan area within an hour of the Big Apple. The idea of gathering together a bunch of us from across a dozen different families once or twice a month was never any harder than figuring out some lame excuse to have a party.
That day, the excuse was actually a fairly good one, hatched by Aunt Nora. Two branches of the extended family spawned by the Four Famous Forkin sisters and their equally rambunctious brothers, the O'Conors and the Kellys spent so much time together, my Dad and "Uncle Bill" were more like brothers than first cousins, and Nora was Bill's bubbly better half. It was Nora's idea that year that we would have a Kentucky Derby party. Of course, it goes without saying that a Kentucky Derby party is pointless unless you follow it up a couple of weeks later with a Preakness party, to see if the Derby winner might take the second jewel. And if the lucky horse had another strong showing, it should follow two weeks later with a Belmont Stakes party, so we could all watch the mile-and-a-half dash for a Triple Crown.
In other words, Nora was betting we'd be fortunate enough to need three parties held at three different homes over the course of five weeks. With my sister getting married in June, and my brother getting married in August, we'd all be spending a good portion of the summer hanging around one another. Again. And we'd expect nothing less.
Nora was sure we were going to have a good show that day. Two horses were so well regarded, it was the first time since 1960 that two different entries were coming in at less than 2-to-1 in the odds. And to make the day especially fun, we'd have a pot luck draw of numbers at a buck each, just to make the race all that much more interesting. I vaguely recall my father allowing me to put his $1 in the bowl and draw our number. Looking back on the details I find on the net, "Believe It" may have been our horse, but I'm not really sure.
But there was a lot I do remember clearly from that day. First are the names of those two chestnut colts that were so highly rated that spring and summer: one was named Alydar. The other was named Affirmed. I remember like it was yesterday the smile on the face of Peggy's husband Tom Ryan - son-in-law of my Dad's sister Agnes Clark - when he pulled the name of Alydar from the bowl. And I remember the cocky, freckle-faced grin as my Aunt Mary Dunn's youngest son picked the name of Affirmed. His name was Patrick, and he was 16.
As the race started, Tommy - ever the kid at heart - jumped in front of the TV and started bouncing up and down on his knees. "COME ON, ALYDAR!"
Patrick, of course, would have none of that. "COME ON, AFFIRMED!"
"COME ON, ALYDAR!" Tommy would yell again.
"COME ON, AFFIRMED!" Pat would screech back.
It went back and forth like that for the entire stretch. And though I sat with a lump in my throat and a losing piece of scratch paper in my hand, I was laughing hysterically as the red-headed kid from Fords, New Jersey was merciless in his torment of big Tom Ryan at the finish. I admired his fearless spunk as Pat waved his newfound cash in the nose of a guy that had to be standing a foot taller than him at the time. Of course, I wasn't even 10, and couldn't fully appreciate that Tom was probably the most gentle creature in the room, and Pat had nothing to fear from him in any case.
Two weeks later, Nora tried in vain to set up another pool like we'd had on Derby Day. But when the bowl started around, Tommy wrestled it away from the little round woman, and wouldn't give it up until he'd found the piece of paper with Alydar's number on it. Patrick, not to be outdone, came up next and did the same until he found Affirmed's number. And so the scene was replayed again on the floor of another house, in front of another TV.
"COME ON, ALYDAR!"
"COME ON, AFFIRMED!"
If you're old enough to remember, you can guess the utter dejection Tommy went through that afternoon. By the time we got to the Belmont, Nora didn't want to waste anyone else's money - or Tommy's sanity - on yet another rigged pool. But there they were again, back on the floor.
"COME ON, ALYDAR!"
"COME ON, AFFIRMED!"
It's getting close to 30 years now, and Affirmed remains the last horse to win the Triple Crown. To this day, I can't meet Tom Ryan at a wedding or a baptism without hearing the echo of hoofbeats in my ears.
And it's that freckle-faced, red-headed teenager with the cash in his fist I think of whenever someone says, "Never forget".
This essay is dedicated to my cousin Cdr. Patrick S. Dunn, for the 2,996 Project. Additional reflections will be added to the extended entry until Patriot Day on Monday.
Pat was a remarkable kid. No, not in the way most people mean it, when they're talking about the valedictorian, or the star athlete, or the popular socialite. Pat was a first-rate, unapologetic clown. The pre-eminent practical joker. The star of the party. But he wasn't any of those things because he wanted attention, like most comedians. He just wanted to have fun, and he didn't just want you to have fun too - he was bound and determined to personally ensure it happened.
I don't remember too many examples. In fact, other than the story I post above, my memories of Pat are a blur of my childhood, mixed with a blur of my teenage years, when he was busy at the Naval Academy and I was busy being wrapped up in all those things teenagers think are important.
By the time we were both adults, he was a busy naval officer, and I was a cadet at a private military college, trying to earn an Army officer's commission through ROTC.
When I found myself in the same room as Pat, I was always so intimidated by his natural likability, I found it hard to interrupt. It would have been like stopping a great actor in the middle of the big scene, or trying to start a conversation in the middle of the band's big number. It was better to just sit back, soak it up, and enjoy. I'm sure if I was around my family more, someone would remind me of a memory, and I could say, "Oh, YEAH!" But living in exile in Florida (a long story for another time), I don't get near enough of those times for my taste.
I do remember - not an image in my mind, or a sound in my ears, but a feeling. It was that pit in my stomach whenever we'd end up at one of those family gatherings and someone would say, "No, the Dunns couldn't make it." Or the stretched, fake feeling of my cheek muscles as I forced a smile, when Pat's sister Mary would explain where he was and why he couldn't come along with the family. I love all the Dunns dearly, and I cherish the times when I get to see them. But Pat... it just was never the same without Pat.
And I always thought there would be a day when we both slowed down, that I could sit down and have a good chat, and a beer, and a laugh with Pat. If not sooner, then definitely when we were older. When we were gray.
But Pat got old and gray far sooner than I ever expected. White as a stone in Arlington National Cemetary.
Patrick wasn't exactly a Rhodes scholar. In fact, I've been told his grades in high school were somewhere short of pitiful. His attempts to get into Annapolis were suffering a bit from comparison to his brother John, who was - and is - often remarked as being "the smartest man in the room". When I heard that Pat's Congressman wouldn't provide him with the appointment he needed to attend the Naval Academy, I thought that was it, and he'd never get in.
But Uncle Bob - John and Pat's father - wouldn't take "no" for an answer. He must have called half of Washington, and in the end, we found out something we'd never known: Congressmen and Senators aren't the only way to get an appointment to one of the service academies. Various members of a presidential administration, including the President himself, the Vice-President, and the Secretary of Defense, each have a reserve of appointments they are able to provide to exceptional applicants who were not provided the standard appointment by a Member of Congress. Through Uncle Bob's persistance, Patrick received an appointment from one of 50 alloted to the Secretary of the Navy.
Annapolis was even tougher on Pat than high school was. I've heard some of the instructors who had known John couldn't help but chide Patrick for not being as good a student as his brother. But Patrick was a rock - someone his superiors could count on, and a steady friend to his fellow classmates. He excelled at the military and leadership training beyond the standard classwork.
When I attended their sister Mary's wedding - in my own uniform as a VFMJC cadet - both naval officers were able to get leave to attend. I can't recall if it was then or sometime afterward, but I eventually learned that Patrick was succeeding beyond everyone's expectations, while John was having some difficulties in his career. John, still the expert in everything he did, wasn't afraid to tell the unvarnished truth to his superiors, and more than a few didn't appreciate it. Patrick, on the other hand, being much more affable - not to mention diplomatic - was able to be honest without so much confrontation. When Patrick was given an order, it got done - and without anyone feeling their toes had been unfairly stepped on.
John would eventually retire as a Lieutenant Commander, while many saw Admiral's stars in Patrick's future. Among his assignments, he was stationed in the Persian Gulf during the First Gulf War, he served aboard the USS Inchon, the USS Montgomery, and the USS Theodore Roosevelt. For two years, he worked at the Pentagon, before he was assigned as Executive Officer of the USS La Salle while she sailed the Mediterranean out of Italy. In January, 2001, he returned to Washington DC as the youngest-serving full Commander in the United States Navy at the time.
His job for this tour of duty was to serve as a Surface Warfare specialist in the office of the Chief of Naval Operations. His office was one of the safest duty stations in the world: the E-ring of the Pentagon, where no foreign military would ever dare attack.
Pat lives on in the memory of some whose life he touched, and of all who knew him.
And some who never would.